dear God,
Please help me. i do not want to feel this way all over again. it seems that no matter what i do in life, it is never enough. even when i show that i really am trying, no one ever seems to believe in me.
will i always be the failure? will everyone keep looking down on me no matter what i do?
i'm tired of always trying to show people that i am good enough.
dear God,
please take away all this pain inside me. please make the people around me understand what i'm really going through. please help me be stronger.
i don't want to keep crying. it doesn't make the pain go away. it just makes it worse.
dear God,
i love you. i love my family. i love him. i want things to be good. i want life to be pleasant. please help us all. please help me understand what my purpose in life is. i can't keep pretending that i'm happy. i can't keep pretending that daddy loves me the most. i can't keep pretending that everything is ok.
it's not.
dear God,
in this time of need. in this time of pain. in this time of confusion.
i need your guidance the most. help me please. i can't take this pain again.
please make this disease go away.
please help others see that life isn't as bad as it seems. please let them treasure everything they have. please let them understand that not everyone is perfect, but everyone is trying to make things right.
dear God,
i need peace of mind. i need to know that i'm here for a purpose. i need to know that even when the whole world is crashing around me, i still have someone to turn to. i need to know that not everyone has their back against me and thinks i'm useless. again.
dear God,
please.
please.
please.
i'm begging you.
please help me.
Hi Mila;
Let me start by saying, "I am not God." lol
That sounds so obvious it goes without saying, but there are actually people who will try to tell you they are God.
Next, I don't pretend to have the only access to God. I say this for the same reason. Some will try to say they have the truth and everybody else on the planet is a liar trying to deceive you or, deceived themselves, or are agents of God's enemy.
That said, I do have a relationship with God and He made your request known to me and laid it upon my heart to encourage you. So,
He is a proud Daddy and wants you to know that when you lean on Him and call out to Him, you make Him happy and He will answer for He is proud to be your Father. He is aware of your pain and your struggles and He believes in you. He wants to make your life a tremendous success. If you will listen to Him, He will guide you through all the criticism, past the pain, past the failures and on to great success.
Critics and criticism are a necessary part of life. But you must be wise when you receive criticism. You must be even more wise when giving criticism. Criticism takes several forms. The Holy Scriptures say it like this; Faithful are the blows of a friend, deceptive the kisses of an enemy, You must discern which kind of criticism the critics are engaging in. Do not accept that which is designed to break and chip away, rather than improve. If the critic is not attempting to break you, you still must discern if the criticism is accurate and if the critic's expectation is good. I mean, so what if you are being criticized for not taking a dare to steal or hurt someone?
The choice critic is that person you can trust to want your best and has some wisdom in the topic they are currently employing to criticize.
Unfortunately, failure is also a necessary part of life. Here is the thing, we can't let the pain of failure prevent us from trying again and again until we learn the path to success. God will not reward self destructive behaviors. So He has given us pain to discourage that behavior and He chooses to reward those who do right. We call this flourishing as if we only have to make the correct steps and everything turns out with the standard set of results. This works in science labs but not always in society and certainly not with God. God knows every detail of every thought and purposes to guide us through life. If He knows your inner workings, He does not rely on behavioral evidence and more, He has a purpose for each and every life, so He is designing each of us for a particular work, a general work, and if you are willing, an overarching work.
God rewards His own for their loving, devoted obedience to Him above all. His reward is not measured in gold and the love of men. His reward is the assurance of His own love toward you. His reward is a peace within that cannot be described in words nor compared to anything in the world or any other experience.
Now we have to look at this concept of reward as seen through the eyes of men who are often ignorant. It is a rare man who knows God's reward at all, much less a man who knows and finds this peace in the abundance of wealth or power or anything. A wealthy man appears to be at peace with most circumstances, but what happens if his wealth is threatened? He becomes hopeless and wretched. He will often break every commitment to God to retain his wealth. Would God give inner peace to a man who is more committed to anything besides Himself? So, the measure of God's blessings are not property or relationships with others, but in the stability of inner peace that comes with the knowledge of God's love for you.
There is another deception here. Many have grown calluses over their hearts so that they no longer feel the pain of going against the will of God. They appear to be at peace in their sins. More, there is a tool the enemy of God uses known as pride. When a person is in shame over their sin, they hide this behind a great show of being at peace with themselves. In truth, this person is in great inner turmoil and is unstable in all his ways. At some point, everyone has to decide to turn from their sin or embrace it. Not one of us on earth has the strength to turn from sin without God's help and so the struggle. Those who grow weary of the struggle embrace their sin and reject God whether openly or secretly.
Nobody on earth today is perfect. This means we must show grace to one another. God is calling you to be a teacher of grace. He wants you to use this time, this experience to learn the value of His grace and spread the knowledge of this value to others. He has purpose for your life and a design, a plan of action. This is why He has allowed you to go through this. Take heart. He knows you and desires you and with your cooperation will use you to advance His purpose for us on earth. He has designed a plan for you that is tough because the work He has for you is tough. You will be facing the rejection of men, you will be facing the pain of criticism, but take your strength from Him and you will find Him sufficient through all.
In every role you play in life, you must take knowledge of the value of this grace. In every role, find examples of this wisdom and relay them to friends, family, neighbors and complete strangers at every opportunity. In every one of those opportunities, you must call on God to strengthen you, guide you, and preserve you.
These are the instructions from the God I receive in the Holy Bible and from the Spirit of God who is with me.
Posted by: JudgeBob | 01/31/2009 at 05:12 AM
INDIVIDUAL VALUE - Gift of Y'shua JESUS
by James Fletcher Baxter
YOU ARE WELCOME TO WRITE ME AT JBAXTER@choicemaker.net
The Old World method of measuring human value was,and still is, by the collective - the group. Whether tribe,
clan, city-state, race, color, ethnic, or gender, the Old
World, ancient and modern, measures by the plural
unit. Individuals had and have no value of them-
selves but only as they were and are part of a
collective. Only numbers counted! When Y'shua Jesus died on the cross, the veil of
the Temple at the Holy of Holies parted from the
top down. -> Matthew 27:51 Mark 15:38 Luke 23:45 KJV <-
The individual believer in the congregation had, for
the first time, a face-to-face, one-on-one relation with
his/her Creator. Until then, there was no individual
valid option to collectivist human value measuring
systems. (Only the High Priest entered the Holy of Holies
in behalf of all Israel, and even then, only once a year.) The Creator, Himself, had validated each individual
person for the first time.Thus, the Individual became
the cornerstone for later human value measuring
systems: socio-political, philosophical, protestantism,
educational, economic, etc., henceforth and forever. Western Civilization, America, English Law, civil
Rights, the 'democratic' process, representative
government, etc., all sprang from that single event.
(Greco-Roman 'democracies' were 95% slave through-
out their entire histories.) Biblical principles are still
today the foundation under Western Civilization and
the American way of life. Many social systems attempt to borrow ideas of
"democracy" without the basic premise in The Indi-
vidual. Such a system is only superficially and
temporarily 'democratic.' The cornerstone of the
democratic process is The Individual and the
cornerstone of the value of The Individual is
Y'shua Jesus! It is not possible to have one with-
out the other. There is only One Source - there is
no other. It is additionally interesting to note that all
value measuring systems are based on the single
definitive unit of the system. Ex: Number, Time,
Distance, Weight, Heat, Money, Angle, Volume, etc. Only humanism makes the abusive error of measuring
human value by the plural unit and attempts to
build social structures, relations, and institutions
thereon. Such man-made systems can only be
abusive and oppressive because in reality there
are only individual persons. Groups or collectives
are merely convenient verbalizations about indi-
viduals. They are not reality. I have yet to see a 'group.' All I have ever seen
are individuals. Have you ever seen a group - or is
it a verbal convenience? Reality is only in the
individual person. And, such a validation never
derived from a human source without the initiative
of the Creator. (The French Rationalists of the
18th Century favored the fruit - but rejected the
branch, tree, and root.) Today, wherever Y'shua Jesus is rejected, the
group or collective is still the basic way of
measuring human value - and/or human non-value.
Individual value is the only solution to collectivism;
- slavery or any other plural form. We thank the Lord God for revealing His validation
of each individual person. We thank Him for creat-
ing each person uniquely, in His image, and call-
ing each one to a courageous ascension by Y'shua
Jesus, who said, "I AM the Way..." Praise the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and
His Son of Man, Y'shua Jesus.
Jim Baxter
Teacher, 5th Grade - 30 wonderful years!
Freedoms Foundation Classroom Teacher Medal 1967
Santa Maria, CA
vincit veritas
point-man/follower of The Lion of Judah NO ONE IS SMARTER THAN THEIR CRITERIA.
Posted by: Jim Baxter | 01/31/2009 at 06:41 AM